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Taste.

// June 25th, 2010 // No Comments » // EVERYDAY LIFE, OUT LOUD THOUGHTS

Early this morning I went on a walk – early enough that there wasn’t a lot of traffic to obscure the sounds and smells of nature.

As I walked I inhaled the odors of flowers, grass, leaves, and ocean.  It’s saddening  to think of all the times that I don’t stop and just sniff the air.  It’s a vast array of salty and sweet, strong and faint, perfumey and pungent.  You know, air really never smells as vanilla as I treat it most of the time.

I rubbed my fingers over leaves and flowers – cautiously looking at windows to make sure the neighbors weren’t peeking at me manhandling their foliage.  I felt the scratchy, abrasive trunk of countless palm trees.  It almost hurt at times.  And I could imagine that if I accidentally rubbed my shoulder against one while running that it would leave me pink and raw.

I walked with a cup of coffee in hand and washed the morning taste out of my mouth.  Where would I be without something as simple as taste?

I can actually make a perfect cup of coffee.  My tastebuds are accurate enough to detect the precise amount of sugar if my coffee is too bitter.

I can cook something that others can find appealing – actually bring joy to their faces.  And that same sense of taste can help me prepare people for the disaster their about to experience.  I’ve recommended restaurants.  Praised my wife.  Shared morsels of what I was experiencing.  Brushed my teeth from the internal alerts from my mouth.

Taste and see that the LORD is good; – Psalm 34:8

The Scripture crossed  my mind.  Taste is a metaphor here and there are many deep and fascinating places I could go with it.

But on a much simpler note (and not even a good hermeneutical one for those who are so inclined), I wonder if taste alone, as a sense, is a good enough indicator of the fact that God is good.  I mean, if you never ever got anything else you wanted in life in terms of material possessions or relationships, etc. – if you had only been given the sense of taste would it cause you to conclude that: “Wow, this Creator of mine is a really good to me.  He gave me the sense of taste.”

Think about the sense taste though: it is uniquely yours.  No one can convince you that something tastes good.  No amount of talking or reasoning, no famous named chef can cause you to like or dislike something.  In fact, chances are you like the taste of something that makes other people cringe.

The sense of taste seems to have no other use but to give us enjoyment. Now granted there’s gag reflex that sometimes can save your life and desiring the flavor of something is sometimes the indicator that your body has unmet nutritional needs.  But all in all, the sense of taste in most of its use is only to bring us pleasure.  We typically don’t eat things we don’t like the taste of. We eat things because we like them. And most of the time, eating isn’t a burden.

Taste.

Why would God create such a subjective thing?

Isn’t that a weird thing to come up with?

Who could have thought of such a thing?

If you created life out of nothing, would you be so concerned about its pleasure?  It’s joy?

Personally, I think I’d be more concerned about my own pleasure as a creator.

When I was a little kid, my grandmotther would cook these fabulous artery clogging Southern meals.  And after she’d cook, she’d just sit at the table with a smirk on my face and watch me eat.  I was 6 years old and I still vividly remember how weird (and a little uncomfortable) it was that she’d stare at me.  But she’d always say why: “Nanny just loves watching her baby eatin’ good.”

Even explaining the why she did it, doesn’t make it any less strange I guess.  But I think today she helps me understand God a little more.

What a weird thing it is for God to give us taste buds.  But He loves watching us.

I think God was paying attention to me 2 nights ago when I ate my wife’s meatloaf.  It was an insanely good meatloaf.  And I was really grateful.

But I think God’s much more enthralled with us than we give Him credit for.  In fact, I think we might be pretty uncomfortable with Him if we knew how much.  You’d probably be asking the similar question that I was asking: “Why are You staring at me while I eat?”

And He’d say, “Because I love you.  I love just watching you.  I like just seeing you happy and enjoying something.”

And we’d think that was weird.

And He’d be totally okay with that.

God’s always watching.  And not for the reasons we think.

He’s always trying to catch us….just like a Father.

Devotion…

// May 19th, 2010 // No Comments » // OUT LOUD THOUGHTS

It’s easier to give God devotion rather than your heart.

Devotion doesn’t have any risks. It can actually be used as a bargaining chip to point out why we deserve something.

Choosing friends…

// May 14th, 2010 // No Comments » // OUT LOUD THOUGHTS

I grew up hearing all the cliches that you hear regarding friends – “birds of a feather…,” “…peas in a pod,” “be careful choosing friends…” – I have to say they did get a little smarter as I got older. And these days, you’re bound to see one of those smarter quotes resurrected as a wall post on Facebook like:

“A friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still, gently allows you to grow.”

And that is a Shakespeare quote by the way.

The truth is that most of the people we find in relationship with us are as much like us as we can possibly find. In part, I think we just love ourselves that much. I mean, if you can’t hang out with yourself, you might as well find someone who at least reminds you of yourself.

I think agreement is good, and there are some great and powerful things that come out of agreement. But there’s negative things as well like assuming you’re right because someone else agrees with you, while condemning others because they don’t. You know, it’s easy to make a bad guy out of someone who disagrees.

The problem is that we’ve sliced so thinly the community that I think we were meant to have.

Community is a huge part of the transformative process. We don’t change on our own. And, you know what? We don’t change just by hanging out with people who agree nearly 100% with us.

As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another. – Proverbs 27:17

That’s such a sexy verse. It’s pretty much become cliche as well. We’ve dressed it up to sound so friendly, but I really don’t think it’s as nice as everyone would like to think.

Iron cannot actually sharpen iron. It can’t.

Take two steak knives out of a drawer and try sharpening them by rubbing them together or something. It just can’t happen.

And I think that’s one of the points of this scripture is that if two are so much alike, if they are of the same hardness, that is the degree of sharpness that you will get by their collision. What you’ll have is a high degree of no change at all. But the two will be just alike. They’ll be buddies.

The point is that there cannot be change where there is no real conflict.

When iron is being sharpened, it’s messy. There are sparks and slivers of metal everywhere. In any sharpening something gives in and something dominates. Equals do not sharpen they dull.

In these days of political correctness and tolerance, I think we’ve all become a bunch of weenies who get our feelings hurt too easily. We run away from relationships because we say they’re too painful, and we hole up with people who’ll always agree – or – even if they disagree, they won’t tell us because they’re afraid of conflict.

I don’t know about you, but I’m not right all the time. And sometimes, I’m in conflict with people and I’m 100% sure I’m right…for a while…and then some months later I allow myself to be broken and sharpened.

Don’t get me wrong – I hate conflict. I really do. I’ve always wanted everyone – everyone! – to like me. But I hate not changing. I hate that inauthentic dance that we do around in relationships when we don’t disagree. I hate that giving up on a relationship because I find myself on the polar opposite of an issue. I need all these people. I really do.

Knee problems…

// April 28th, 2010 // No Comments » // EVERYDAY LIFE, OUT LOUD THOUGHTS

391480_knee_x-ray_1Yesterday I went to my first physical therapy appointment for my knee.  Honestly, there was very little actual therapy, just a ton of questions.

The first question: “Where does it hurt?”

And it’s amazing that after all this pain and the high degree of communicative ability that I have (at least that I’d like to think I have) that I struggled for several minutes to describe the pain and exactly where it was located in my knee.

Second question: “So it hurts when you walk?”

And I’m like, “not really.”

“When you run?”

“No.”

And at that point I’m thinking the physical therapist thinks I really don’t have a knee problem.   I actually felt a little alarmed internally because I didn’t think she was going to treat me.

I mean, my knee really did hurt, not when I walk…most of the time.  It hurts when I jump.  It hurts when I make a sudden move or climb the stairs…but not every time.  But when it hurts my leg totally goes limp.

“Is it getting worse?”

I don’t think so.  I don’t know.  It could be.

And after a long list of more questions, the physical therapist skeptically began her examination of my knee.  I walked, stepped, and resisted applied pressure and winced as visibly as I could because I actually wanted to get this thing taken care of.

Finally she looked at my quads and said, “How long have you been having this problem?”

Like 2 years.

“So why didn’t you get physical therapy?”

Because I’m a guy and I hate going to the doctor and I figure things will just work their way out.

“Yeah, I can tell you’ve been dealing with this for a while…your right leg is smaller than the other.  In fact, there’s a big difference.”  And she actually measures both of my quads to prove to me how much of a difference really existed.

And it dawned on me stupid it was for me to wait so long.  How I’ve stayed out of pain by walking and using that leg less and refraining from activities that I used to enjoy.  I’ve managed my pain, but I really haven’t gotten better.  I live around the pain.  I nervously walk up and down stairs.

It’s become normal.  I just didn’t realize how normal it’s become.

What happened yesterday sorta mirrors what’s been going on in my conversation with Jesus over the last year or so. I realize now that my times of bad attitude, my defensiveness, my guilt, my shame, my lack of trust, my greedy grasping, etc. – these things are all ways that I’ve compensated for pain and brokenness. I realize those things rear their head so that I don’t have to experience the pain that I’ve never dealt with.

Some of that pain is from religion, from relationship with people, circumstances, and often (and most times) it stems from a wrong belief about God.

Reactly wrongly to people, circumstances, and God feels like something that’s happening in the moment. Someone crosses us or something happens and we react in a way that maybe we wish we didn’t. But we believe ourselves to be fair people who would at least be reacting objectively.

Truth is, we’re broken people. We may feel at times like we’re more whole than we really are – and that’s just because we’ve compensated so long that we can’t even see the limp that we walk with while others may even be able to see it a mile away.

Some of the junk we really thought would just work it’s way out. But that’s not what happens. Not talking to people or not thinking about a situation or a hurt doesn’t mean that we’ve been healed. And that’s where God wants to bring us – to wholeness.

Right now, I’m staring at the beginning of some physical therapy that can strengthen and bring healing to my knee. I’m kinda not looking forward to it. But this problem has been 2 years in the making and it’s not going to resolve from one doctor’s visit.

I’m so reminded of the story of Jesus with the man at the pool of Bethesda (John 15:1-15).  He’d been an invalid for 38 years, and Jesus asked him a really startling question: “Do you want to get well?”

What Jesus asked was a really huge question on a lot of levels for this guy. For brevity I won’t go into the endless number of things that would have changed including the fact that he would have to actually get a job and support himself.

The initial encounter with Jesus was really the easy part. Yeah, Jesus could heal him physically. And that sounds so over the top, who couldn’t be happy and better off with that?

But I think Jesus was seeing ahead. This was going to change everything. This guy was going to have to be reintroduced to life, and honestly I think it was going to be pretty tough. I think he was going to have to go through a healing process of brokenness with himself, with brokenness with family who allowed him to be on the streets, with people who walked past him every day and thought he was trash…he was even going to have to sort through bitterness that he possibly held against God for 38 years of his life.

Jesus was more than willing to touch his physical body and heal it. But Jesus’ desire for his life was much greater than that guy could have ever known. Jesus wanted him to be whole.

And for us that’s His same desire.

It’s not okay to be sick.

It’s not normal.

It’s not acceptable.

We can’t live in a place of compensating for brokenness. We can’t enable environment that accepts people to continually walk around in their woundedness.

Sponged…

// March 25th, 2010 // No Comments » // OUT LOUD THOUGHTS, featured_video

sponge

I was a little bummed today when I was looking up a new church plant in my community and found a community news item that they have a fundraiser this weekend.

Now I’ll admit that I have a personal opinion regarding a church fundraising from the community. And I’ll reserve that opinion.

But I’m greatly concerned about the message it sends when a new church springs up with zero credibility and relationship with a heavily unchurched community and organizes a fundraiser for missions to another part of the globe. Included in the article was that they’re hoping to sponge $2500 off the community.

A COUPLE OF FACTS ABOUT OUR COMMUNITY:

  • 90% of the kids of our elementary school get free or reduce lunches.
  • There are a ton of obvious community needs.  Walk down our street one time as a visitor and you can name about 10.
  • It’s about 90% unchurched with many people frankly hostile to the Church.

Do I think this church is trying to be a sponge?  Of course not.  I’m sure they haven’t even considered the fact that the perception of the Church in our community is that the Church really doesn’t care about anything and only comes out of the 4 walls during the Christmas parade so that it can leap on an opportunity to convert someone.

What bugs me the most is that – by now – we should start considering these things.

A church plant is mostly likely not going to make $2500 off of themselves at a fundraiser.  Obviously, if they were that wealthy they wouldn’t be doing a fundraiser in the first place.

So the intention, like it or not, is sponging off of a bunch of already broke unchurched people who already think we don’t care.

Last time I checked, we’re supposed to be the people serving our community.  It just kills me when we get it wrong.

Whenever I think of the trips that we’ve taken as missionaries to other countries, there were a few things that were no-brainers:

  • We went to that place financially solid enough so that we wouldn’t be a burden on the people there.
  • We tried our best to bless the businesses by buying locally and gave to the needs of the community.
  • We usually gave a financial gift to our hosts & the local churches as well.

So why don’t we treat out own communities with the same courtesy?

Hey, Fundraise.  But ask people who are following Jesus to make a sacrifice toward what you believe He’s calling you to do.

Go to every place on the planet with the Gospel.   But don’t have your introduction to your primary mission field be with your palm out – not in hospitality – but in asking them to serve your cause.

Here’s a clip from one of our giveaways in this same community.  The most we say is, “It’s just a small way to say Jesus loves you – no strings attached.”

At the end of the video (difficult to hear) a person had a keen insight: “Wow, That’s they way it should be!”

Wisdom from the poor man…

// March 3rd, 2010 // No Comments » // OUT LOUD THOUGHTS

I wonder if anything is more despised or looked down upon than the wisdom of a poor man.

If you sat on a sidewalk for hours a day with a poor man, do you think you’d be wiser?

If you knew someone who sat on a sidewalk for hours a day listening to a poor man, do you think they’d be wiser? Or do you think they’d wasted their time?

Is a poor man’s words less wise than a rich man?

Does a person with worldly success possess wisdom? Maybe not you’d assume, because you think of yourself as less shallow than that. But, then again, when was the last time you listened or sought the wisdom of a poor man.

Our minimum standards are probably upper middle class mean at least I think – credible enough because they have some standard of success yet authentic enough that they have struggles and a measure of brokenness.

We should be more appalled at ourselves than this. After all, Jesus did some pretty great talks explaining the distinction between the foolish and the wise and the rich and the poor.

But we still think the poor man speaks of only madness and failure. We think the poor man earned his place because of his own choices and sin.

Sounds kinda familiar to me, because they thought the same thing about Jesus:

Isaiah 53:2-4

He grew up before him like a tender shoot, and like a root out of dry ground. He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him, nothing in his appearance that we should desire him. He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering. Like one from whom men hide their faces he was despised, and we esteemed him not. ..yet we considered him stricken by God, smitten by him, and afflicted.

Layers…

// February 26th, 2010 // No Comments » // OUT LOUD THOUGHTS

Lately, I’ve pressed in to God a bit more.  I can’t really take credit for that.  It’s a response to grace and the drawing of the Holy Spirit obviously.  I realize in me there still exists things that have kept God at a safe(r) distance.  Which is stunning to me, because you can’t help but convince yourself that you grow to a point of trusting God implicitly, where you truly know that He’s good.

But I’m continually coming to the realization that this revolution of the heart is an unending process.  Until God is so known and locked into our hearts, until fear is completely washed away and only love remains, God still exposes places in our hearts that He’s not taken yet.

I’m learning that a lot of stuff that I said was no big deal or were just old hurts of the past really still are a big deal to God.  They numb our hearts and keep us from experiencing His love.

I’m actually really excited about peeling the layers back.  I know that sounds like a scary prospect for some people, but the level of intimacy with the Father is of such great value to me.   I just want to know Him more.  And I want to trust Him more.

If I insulted the churchgoer…

// August 26th, 2009 // 7 Comments » // OUT LOUD THOUGHTS

Today on my TWITTER:

TWEET: approx 10:45am People are so easy to inspire but rarely do they ever change.

TWEET: approx 10:46am I think churchgoers are addicted to inspiration, but people who truly follow Jesus are marked by change & transformation.

TWEET: approx 10:49am I think some churchgoers are addicted to inspiration, but people who truly follow Jesus are marked by change & transformation.

Let me introduce you to the Paul that I live with every day.  This Paul is a guy who lives in spiritual frustration in a good kind of way.  It’s one thing to be just frustrated.  I think that’s bad.  But I live in a frustration of what can be and what is….with myself, not so much with people or the Church.

A lot of people don’t get that about me.  I remember a former colleague of mine saying, “Paul, you always say such weighty things and people aren’t always ready to handle that kind of stuff.”

It doesn’t always help to tell people that you’re teaching this out loud to yourself and letting others in on the conversation.

That’s actually why the spiritual musings section of my blog is called “Outloud Thoughts.”  That’s what they really are.

But I suppose I would be frustrated with people if they are totally comfortable living in a place where they can’t handle prying, difficult statements or questions.  Or if their mere allegiance and faithfulness is brought in to question.

I mean, Peter got kinda got upset at first too when Jesus kept repeatedly asking, “Do you love me.”  I think part of following Him is that He’s not afraid to keep asking that question no matter how frustrating it is. [John 21:15-17]

For me, I simply must have my mind insulted with the hope that it will reveal my heart.

So this morning I both got re-tweeted and lightly slammed for my tweets because it was a bit misunderstood.  And I’d have to give people a break when it comes to that, first because no one lives in my head so they can’t understand.  But I do often say things, as a pastor, a teacher, or a wrestler with God, myself, and life that are controversial at first and are meant to ask the question of ourselves.

Sometimes we can ask those things on a deeper level; take them to heart and find that nothing sticks and there’s no conviction.  Other times we react to those things in other ways because they are pointing to something in our hearts.

And sometimes?  Well, we just don’t get it.  PERIOD.  We’re like the teachers of the law after Jesus unleashed some heavy woes:

LUKE 11:45

One of the experts in the law answered him, “Teacher, when you say these things, you insult us also.”

And Jesus is like, “Um…yeah, that was intentional.  I’m talking about you!”

SO REGARDING MY TWEETS THIS MORNING…

How did I arrive there? What was I talking about?

If you’re around me for very long, you’ll probably notice that I have a huge expectation of God to bring His power and His presence to bear and bring change and transformation to ourselves and to the world around us.

I think the very evidence of God alive in us is going to be radical change.

A few years back, I guess I used to think that some people were more holy or more righteous than others.  Or that they had less to get over than others who were into really bad sin, and so the change that we’d see in their life would be less than those who had more for God to clean up.

As non-sensical as that previous sentence is in its poor construction, I think it is just as non-sensical when it comes to our theological understanding of  God’s power and presence in our lives.

If we are being brought from death to life and what was old is now new, then that is incredibly drastic.  We can expect some things to look totally different than before.  We should be very different people.

I don’t know about you, but God is much bigger than me, much better than me, more powerful than me, and much more holy than I could ever dream of being.  His ways are not my ways.  At times they are the opposite of what I understand in my humanness. I am starting to get that.  And my sincere desire is to see His likeness more evident in me every day.

New from old – I think I should be radically different than I was a year ago, even though I’ve been following Jesus since I was 13 and full-time over the last 9 years….(full-time…that was clever wasn’t it?)

If I don’t have an expectation of change that is that radical, then  one of two things I believe:

  1. I’ve in some way arrived and I can’t be changed that much more.
  2. God’s not powerful enough to bring that level of change.

And if either are true, I might as well forget this following Jesus thing.

INSPIRATION VS. TRANSFORMATION

There are a handful of guys that I really enjoy listening to whenever I’ve got a chance.   And there are times that I listen or I’m reading one of their books and I honestly do engage with God and have that warm fuzzy feeling.

But I walk away – maybe days or weeks or months later – and I realize that I wasn’t actually changed by those inspirational words.

Sometimes it has to do with the very words themselves.  They aren’t words that have an authority or a weight.  Sometimes they appeal to my sense of accomplishment and achievement and wanting more out of life.  They appeal to my selfish senses.  I do think there are a number of those voices out there.  And we have to be careful.

Sometimes though, these words are the Words of God.  And somehow, when I look back over the months, I recall that inspiration but wonder where…or more importantly why I left it.

I think this is what James was talking about:

JAMES 1:22-24

Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.  Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like.

The Word of God should result in something – it should result in our responding to God in relationship.  It should result in our seeking Him more.  Because a mirror in and of itself cannot change us.  But God’s power through relationship  with Him can.

The result should be us knowing Him more, drawing more to Him, and a byproduct being our transformation.

Even scarier though to me is the thought that there have been times I’m so inspired by these words or moments that I own them on my lips and not with my life.

You can preach and re-preach Truth – because it still is Truth – and not live it.

So I just leave you with my statements as ways to insult your mind and your walk with God so that possibly it can reveal your heart:

People are so easy to inspire but rarely do they ever change.

I think churchgoers are addicted to inspiration, but people who truly follow Jesus are marked by change & transformation.

What is missional? Part 4: Awe

// July 25th, 2009 // 1 Comment » // OUT LOUD THOUGHTS

Acts 2:42-44

They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and to the fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer. Everyone was filled with awe, and many wonders and miraculous signs were done by the apostles. All the believers were together and had everything in common.

I absolutely love this text.  But it certainly has been manipulated a lot over the years.

Church growth people actually hone in on verse 41 where “three thousand were added to the church that day.”  It’s proof for them that God counts and that focusing on growth is valid.

Teaching, fellowship, etc. – the 5 Purposes.  Yes!

All the people who want to argue that the early church has the model we should be following, they love this text.

House church people and communal people love the breaking of the bread that’s done in homes and the essential of community.

They’re all classic cases of missing what is blatantly obvious right in front of our faces.

Awe.

People weren’t just impressed.  People weren’t saying: “Wow we have 3000 more people now, let’s do this again.”  People weren’t just sharing possessions and saying, “I hate capitalism.  This is what God commands us to do.”

People were in awe.

Do you get that? Awe.  Awestruck.  Shaken to their core.  The fear of God was there – not that they were afraid – they had encountered the One who was bigger than life, than possessions, than situations, than poverty…they couldn’t fear death any longer, because He proved that He had the keys to it.  Even their lives that could be taken from them at any moment by the authorities could not stop this movement.

There was a heavy expectation.  A deep profound sense of transformation actively going on in their very being.  The Kingdom of God – His rule and reign – was breaking in on them.  It must’ve been crazy to find yourself going through life worrying about the things that people worry about – jobs, paying the bills, feeding the kids, your camel breaks down – and then to become Spiritual beings simply having a human existence.

Have you ever been in awe?  I don’t mean “Yay, God.”  I mean in awe.

You see, when you’re in awe of God – those are the times when what you’ve just seen is unexplainable.  It’s against the forces of nature.  There’s not a theory in physics that can make an excuse for it.  Sociologists would be dumbfounded.  It would be easier to believe “these are just not the same people.”

I think we’ve been too easily impressed.  I think we follow men and we look at structures and we hold up models, but tell the truth: has anything every captured your imagination?  Has there been something that you’ve seen in, around, or through the Church as you’ve known it when God was so huge that you found your spiritual capacity to fully understand it was too limited.  And when I say Church as you’ve known it, I mean everything – small, mega, para – all of it.  Have you experienced God in such a way that you could not even wrap your head around what was happening?

I put a blog up some weeks back that continues to be the feature story on my main page about my wife, Jessica’s healing.  I can’t tell you the $1000′s we’ve spent, the number of doctors we’ve seen, the medications taken, the alternative treatments that we’ve tried, and perhaps million prayers that we’ve prayed.

People have watched – anyone remotely close to us – and have seen the physical toll that it took on my wife.  And suddenly after a prayer that was not unlike many of the prayers we prayed, she was miraculously healed.

I started sharing the story.  I mean, we’ve seen God do some pretty cool things, but when you’ve endured something that a lot of people would just say is going to be a part of your life forever, experiencing God like this can just turn you upside down.  Jessica and I didn’t know how to react.  We were stunned, elated, praising God, and sometimes on our faces. 

Awe.  I’ve got to stop trying to describe it, because I can’t.  When God steps in and brings something that only He can bring, we realize what a limited vocabulary we have, because in our experience, He’s never been known in that kind of a personal way.

And you know what we did?  We told everybody.  We told the world.  Jessica spoke at a church locally.  People who we didn’t know were calling wanting to hear the story first-hand and document what had happened.

Then the sick started coming forward.  “Maybe God does heal” – people would start thinking.  People began seeking God.  The lost…I’ve got goosebumps again….the lost that we know drank in that story like you wouldn’t believe.  They shared our joy.

People started visiting us.  “We just have to see you” they’d say.  “I can’t believe she’s the same person” – we’d hear that one a lot.

What is it?  It’s a collective sense of awe.  When a person is brought from death to life, when new is brought out of old, there’s only one explanation…Jesus.  He’s the only One who does things like that.

And there’s no one who doesn’t want to hear that story.  Sure, we had some skeptics.   There were a few Christians I knew who’d call just to ask if her healing “stuck.”

But it is undeniable what God released within our connections with people through this single story.  Though one individual.  Faith, joy, celebration – people were awakened out of a spiritual slumber.  People came to the feet of the Master with their broken stories.

People want to know this God that you know.

Do you know someone that just blows you away when you’re around them in the sense that you feel the presence of God when you’re in their vicinity?  Not that intimidating religious stuff.  But the people who know God and talk about Him in and their experiences in such a way that you’re finally like, “Shut-up!  I can’t take your stories any more.  I must have my own.  I must know this God!”

That’s what awe does.

And when I look at the early Church and I see what’s going on, I’m not a bit surprised that 3000 people became part of it in a single day.  Wouldn’t you want to be a part of that?

Hey house church people…It was a priority for those people to get together every day in homes and have dinner together, because when God is actively involved in your life, when He is bringing radical transformation and His presence is so real and tangible, and things are happening, those are stories that MUST be told. It becomes necessary to get together. The daily – get it daily experience of God at work required that they get together.

You ever have something that’s so killer that you call people and tell them to drop everything to hear your story?  I think that’s what was going on.  “Hey guys, we have to get to together over to Ray’s house tonight because we’ve got to celebrate this.  I’m in awe.  I want to bury my face in the carpet with you guys because I don’t know what to do with myself.  Let’s invite everyone we know.  They’ve seen who we were before.  They need to know this.  To experience this.

You know, small group pastor, that’s why we can’t get people involved in small groups and we have to do these ridiculous 5 week series to convince people that they need relationship.  People hate that stuff because there’s nothing that really binds.  There’s nothing to talk about.

But when God starts showing up on a daily basis in your lives and bringing awe, you don’t have to have any other reason to show up.  You don’t need icebreakers and 3 fast songs and 1 slow song to get people in the mood, it happens…sometimes spontaneously.

It does make me wonder what the church has become.  If we need to have clever teaching series that are “relevant,”  If we need to play cover songs that you hear on the radio, if we need to get people out of the doors in a one hour service, then we have to ask ourselves: “Who are we kidding?”

Because if you have to sell Jesus, then you haven’t met Him.

Or at least, you’re not still meeting Him.

Could God be wanting to bring us something that is so unbelievable and undeniable that we’d be thrust into the community saying, “You MUST see this.  You have to meet this Guy!”

A few years back, I heard Tommy Tenney say something that I’ll have to paraphrase:

There’s a reason why 7-Eleven has to stay open 24/7.  It’s because their product demands that they stay open to meet the needs of the community.

And maybe that’s the reason why the Church is only open a couple of hours a week.  Not much product on the shelves.  Or at least nothing that anyone wants.

God, forgive us for the things that have impressed us.  And bring us the awe of You.

What is Missional? Part 3: Witnesses

// July 22nd, 2009 // 3 Comments » // OUT LOUD THOUGHTS

In August 2005, I packed the last few reminders of our youth room into a various assortment of cardboard boxes.  Finally after years of existence in a strip mall in the suburbs of New Orleans, we were going to be moving into a real building.  Most of this stuff didn’t make the cut for the new youth room, so I was going to give it all away over the weekend as we said goodbye to the place over the course of several youth services.

I was so busy that week, I never even heard a report of a possible hurricane that was making its way into the Gulf of Mexico.  In fact, it wasn’t until that Friday that the situation was seriously mentioned in my circles.

My first response was, “Whatever.”  I was tired of all the drama every year with hurricane season.  I went home and told Jessica about it.  She’d heard nothing, of course, because the Lifetime channel isn’t the best place for current, breaking news (nor brilliantly-written, well-acted movies as it were).

Our pastor told us that we’d just hold on to see how the local government officials would treat the situation before we’d make a decision regarding weekend services.

As the weekend progressed, it became increasingly more obvious that we wouldn’t be conducting our final services.  Bummer too, because I had some really cool stuff planned and a pretty decent message.  It was still frustrating, though.  I called up a friend of mine who was a youth pastor in Miami and said, “Thanks a lot, David.  This isn’t funny. Why did you have to send that thing our way?  I’ve got too much work to do this week to be dealing with another  evacuation.”

And, of course, the nation watched how that story played out.  For the first week and a half of evacuation, I watched helplessly from my uncle’s condo in Destin, Florida.

Fortunately, I was able to connect with staff within a couple of weeks later and the city allowed us to come in and begin doing relief work.  Our old building was trashed, but our new facility ended up being a launching pad for relief workers and supplies to begin pouring in to the city.

As our ministry seemed to increase (We started early in the morning till late at night) and take on new forms, a lot of city-based ministries ceased to exist.  It was saddening to call pastors and leaders around the city to ask them to be a part of what we were doing, and to get the response, “Our building was damaged.  We can’t do anything right now.”

For the first time ever, there seemed to be an overwhelming opportunity for God to show up in the moment as an answer to desperate prayers, but, unfortunately there were very few local churches were there to be the incarnation of Christ.

I was quickly having my understanding of ministry revolutionized as I walked up the sidewalk past the remains of the worldly possessions of  the people in our neighborhoods bringing dinner, or some tips on saving photographs, or a small team of people to gut their houses.

At the time, I was heavily connected to youth pastors across the country and I remember sharing with them something that I thought was pretty mind-boggling at the time:

“If your LCD projector went out this week, if your power was off, if you had no running water, or your building flooded, would your ministry cease to exist?  Would you still be a church?  How would you function? ”

You see, I think that the Church has become really poor at defining things.  For instance, the way we’ve defined “ministry” and “evangelism” and “worship” and the way we’ve quantified those things have ultimately caused us to become a caricature of ourselves.

MEASURING GOD…

I remember, as a Jr. High Pastor, flying out to a conference in California and sitting through a seminar that dared us to be brutally honest and evaluate our ministries.  We needed to be goal-specific and to quantify everything that we did.  Otherwise, how could we possibly be effective?

When I got back in town, that was exactly what I was going to do.  So I scheduled a meeting with my pastor regarding this matter, and he was overjoyed to meet with me at Starbucks to help me answer these important questions.

I asked, “How do we know if we’re effective in evangelism?”

He said, “By how many people show up as opposed to before.  Growth.”

I asked, “How do we know if we’re effective in worship?”

He said, “By how many people are engaging during the music.”

I asked, “How do we know we’re being effective in making disciples?”

He said, “If people are coming consistently on the weekends and getting involved in small groups.”

It was reasonable enough to me then.  But it’s amazing how the weighted evidence of gatherings and worship sets and excel spread sheets literally floated away overnight with the uninvited visit of Hurricane Katrina.

We were left with two choices essentially: pack a bag with our meager belongings and go somewhere else or find the right way to define the Church.

WE ARE ALL WITNESSES

In Cleveland right now, it’s nothing to cruise around town and find these billboards that pay homage to LeBron James.   It is the opinion of many people that LeBron is the best basketball player walking the planet.  Regardless of where you stand with that opinion, it’s difficult to argue his ability, especially with the number of times he does something on the court that you’re forced to rewind, put in slow-mo and still ask, “Did he…How did he do that?”

Nike has done something incredibly ingenious in the marketing of LeBron.  They’ve unleashed a campaign with LeBron James using the slogan “We are all witnesses.”  The line is just pregnant, isn’t it?  There is a sense of urgency and expectation.  If you’re not there, what will happen? You’ll miss it!  You could have been a witness.  You could have told the world what you’d seen.  But you can’t, because you missed it.

It’s interesting that it’s a multi-million or multi-billion dollar campaign that essentially says, “You were all a part of seeing this.”  It’s pretty passive, but at least you’ve got something to tell your grandkids.  “Here’s where I was on the planet when LeBron…”

It’s been said that imitation is the greatest form of flattery.  Before it was sloganized, “The Greatest” said it:

Acts 1:5-8

…in a few days you will be baptized with the Holy Spirit.

You will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.”

Pardon me while I rub my goosebumps back into my arm….

Jesus walks the planet in perfection and overturns the works of sin and the enemies of God.  He overcomes all evil and even death.  And when He rises again, He takes the keys to the Kingdom and He does this:

“It’s not enough that I’ve come to suffer all things and to win out victoriously over all.  You will now be my witnesses.”

And when He said that we’d be His witnesses, He wasn’t saying, “You’re going to have a great story to tell your grandkids.”  What He actually did was unfathomable.  He tossed us the keys to His Kingdom.  He called us out of the darkness, out of the role of passive spectator into light. He gave us all authority and power and a mandate to go out to the ends of the earth.

You will be my witnesses.

You will make the invisible reality of me visible.

You will do the works that I have done.

You will do greater things.

The world will take notice.

You will go in my authority and power and share what I’m doing in every crack and crevice on the earth.

That’s huge, scary stuff don’t you think?

So now when we evaluate what we’re doing on this planet with our 70 years, how do we define that?  And how do we know God is at work?  How do we take what Jesus said explicitly and compare that to the way it looks now?

“There’s a lot more people here than there was.”
“More people engage during worship.”
“There are more small groups.”
“We raised some funds.”
“People raised the their hands.”

Does anyone see the problem here? We’ve sold out or settled somehow.  Was this what Jesus promised when He said He was going to send the power His Spirit – the same power that raised Him from the dead?

It’s not even close to the same thing.

You see there was something else that this power was doing.

Acts 4:13-14

Now when they saw the boldness of Peter and John, and perceived that they were unlearned and ignorant men, they marvelled; and they took knowledge of them, that they had been with Jesus. And beholding the man which was healed standing with them, they could say nothing against it.

You see, when God is at work, the world can’t help but be amazed.  When you have no flash, you have no program, you have no building, no worship band, you’re really only left with one thing: your witness.  Your story.

And when people looked at those followers of Jesus, what they knew of them and the transformation that was so apparent in front of them absolutely stunned them.  They knew they’d been with Jesus.  There was such a transformation that even their very speech patterns couldn’t be resolved.  “They’re unlearned, how can they speak like this?  Where is this authority coming from?”

It unsettled and shook the very religious authority and they couldn’t say, “Yeah whatever” because even the people who were in close proximity were being transformed as well.  When they walked through town, people were being healed in their very shadows, because of the One who was overshadowing them.

I don’t know about you, but I’m sick of settling.

When God is at work – and I truly believe He’s not lost a step nor an ounce of desire to bring radical transformation into every person’s life – it is going to be so powerfully evident.  It will rock a whole community.

There will be amazement.  You know why?  Because the people won’t be spectators for a big show, but their very lives will be the big show – exalting a real, ever-present, powerful, loving God.

What do you want?  What do you desire to truly see?  More programs or more God?   Another statistic or another God story?

Witness. The term is pregnant – just as full of expectation as it was the day it rolled off the lips of an ambitious, demanding Jesus.

Be careful how you answer that, because God is calling you to act on it.  To be His witness.

By the way, He’s the King so it’s not a democracy or anything.